God is always speaking, but we don’t always hear. He often speaks in mysteries, hiding truth for us to find and hold on to.
The holidays have me reminiscing about lost friendships. Even though I find myself occasionally longing for the days of extensive friend circles and never-ending social happenings, I am pleased with the small, tight-knit circle of friends that I have now.
I’m not trying to sound gay here, but best friends are like stars to me. You dont always see them, but you know they’re always there. I love those type of friendships that don’t require a lot of effort. We may not see each other as much as we want to or talk as much as we used to, but it doesn’t change the fact that we’re friends no matter what. I can do what I need to do, and they can do what they need to do. What’s important is that whenever we do see each other again, we can pick up right from where we left off without making it awkward. Any friendship that works out like that is a friendship worth having.
Growing up isn’t an easy task. We’re all busy with our own lives that sometimes don’t make time for each other anymore. I’ve been ignored, lie to, and made to think that I was good enough for some people. I’ve been upset and disappointed, over people whom I thought cared for me as much as I cared for them. Sometimes when I’m feeling nostalgic or curious, it reminded me how sophomoric, self-centered, and artificial they were.
I used to be good at forgiving, I really do. However, I’ve learned my lesson. I now understand when to call it quits, and when to stand up for myself. Now that I have finally grasped that concept, my life is much richer, and I know exactly the type of people I want in it.
That being said, I am not claiming to be perfect. I’ve flaws of my own too, but I do know one thing: I have always given myself fully, supported completely, and had the best intentions as a friend should.
Ultimately, I am happy. I am happy to be finding myself, and even happier to be doing so with the few amazing people behind me.
A lot of things in this world may distract me from Him, but I can always rely on Him through it all. He is what keeps me grounded in life, and without him there wouldn’t be any hope.
